Worst Relationship Mistake

[Wendy Friedrich]

We were on vacation and enjoying ourselves immensely. We slowly going through our bucket list and loving every minute of it.

On case you aren’t aware of what a “Bucket List” is, it is a list of things you want to do and see before you kick the bucket.

Ours was immense but we getting there. All in a bit over a month. We crossed over Utah and seen the Buttes, then to Grand Canyon, Hoover Dam, Mead Lake and on to Las Vegas.

Las Vegas was amazing. We were exhausted from taking in the sights and gambling of course. The time change and free booze made it difficult to wake up refreshed in the morning.

One morning, after a very late night, we woke up, really early. It was my Birthday so before I had even had even had a coffee hubby asks me if I wanted to “Get Married Again“.

Without thinking, I started to laugh. (still drunk) I mean I really laughed. The tears were streaming down my face. Before I could shut my mouth (I am flexible, I can fit either foot in my mouth) out pops “What and Make the Same Mistake Twice”

The look on his face was devastating. I knew then I hurt him sooo bad and couldn’t fix it. Ever. I said I was sorry, tried to tell him I wasn’t awake yet, was still hung over, drunk. Nothing could or would ever repair the damage I had done.

How could I be so darn stupid. Some days I deserve to be flogged for what comes out my mouth without thinking of the consequences.

Now I try to think twice when I have say something. Doesn’t always work though.

I know he will never ask me to Marry him again. I broke his heart in a way that I can never repair.

We are still married. On our 35th year. I wouldn’t change a thing but if I could for that instant reverse what I did I most certainly would.

He was and still is my High School Sweetheart, the love of my life, my friend and playmate.

Wish I could change that one thing.

Even though I can’t, I still present myself as a caring person, who is willing to help others as best as I can. I try hard not to be critical of others as I know how much it can hurt. I will never knowingly insult or talk about others behind peoples back. I treat others as I would expect to be treated.